Suriya turned 3 and Vinh is turning 1 ..I cannot believe that we are moving so fast. I do want to though share some of the things that unfolded a year ago to make myself feel better.
Vinh was born on a Sunday Feb 15 2015 and was whisked away from me almost immediatlely with a oxygen mask on. I thought this is just precautionary action to keep my baby comfortable.. and since giving birth at 9am i was exhausted at 11 am i realized my baby is still not back. So i hurried to the NICU just to notice he is fully wired with a oscillator helping him to breathe. Still I am dazed , lost , confused so thought everything will be fine. Then as i am walking out not knowing what to think I see three people walk towards me (supposedly to be on vacation) , Yes the usual suspects Uncle Minh , Tia Vero and Romina. I told them Vinh is in NICU blah blah blah…but somehow felt better about them being there..
We were moved to Downey for additional care and then had recommended Children’s Hospital in case something become serious. Still as a mother who just gave birth i am trying to comprehend and literally understand what went so wrong. Then in Downey when Tri walked into my room and started crying i am like this is not good. If you guys all know about Tri he is not the guy who can easily show emotions but when he is crying i thought its not good. At the same time Suriya is asking when is baby coming home, my mom waiting to hear about her grandson. And Padma freaking out of the reality that is going on since she was in constant contact with us.
Uncle Minh is Vinh’s uncle a physician who knows how to be a uncle and physician at the same time. I do not know how he does but he does it, he explains Vinh’s condition but also explains how things will get better. I AM IN DEBT FOR MY LIFE for the night he spent with us fully knowing he has a full day shift the next day as a emergency care physician. He might see what he did as a small effort but to me its Herculean and I tear up as i right. And Tia vero taking Suriya out with the kid giving me and Tri the time to be with the baby. The reason I bring this up is I have it all pented up in my heart the situation where i was close losing my baby and was asked to pray.
We also were told he might need a lung by pass in order to save him, but he beat all odds and came out without any problem. Yes my Vinh is fighter and he has a purpose. And he gave me a purpose too more than making money for a living.
After this incident I realized how crazy it is as a mother to not feel anything when so much was unfolding. So everybody please take care of the moms postpartum is not simple not at all. Tri was right there with the baby everyday , every night telling him how much he loves him .. and I am sitting in a corner watching. I cannot believe to this moment i was not interested in showing how much I love.. maybe i was scared to attach myself.
ANBE SIVAM … Love is God.. I believe in it. .. And everybody’s love for me and Tri and Suriya bought Vinh back to me… The little fighter , fought his way back from the Abyss to a fully developed 1 year old baby today. I also had all the means to pay for all the high critical care needed , only to realize how about others who do not.
So i am joining March of Dimes and eventually will have my own way of helping babies who have will to fight but need the support economically. This is not doing it because it happened to Vinh .. this my way of giving back to all the nurses and doctors who treated Vinh as their kid and gave him back to me eventually.
Thank you Tri you are my rock , Uncle Min / Tia Vero (I am indebt for life) , Suriya (Who was good at home until we got baby home) , Padma (for making sure communication was handled well to avert unecessary stress and panic.